Rui Sakai
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FOURTH YEAR
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~It's Natural To Feel Pain. It's How We Know That We're Alive~
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Post by Rui Sakai on Jan 12, 2013 2:24:02 GMT -4
~T r u s t R u i L e s s S a k a i~---------------but i'm not that brave ------------------ between the good and bads where you'll find me, reaching for heaven the date is january 11th
dearblogogers,
I'm not completely sure what I want to write or post here, but it's something nice that I'd like to leave behind. Whether someone is interested or not, I don't mind.
If you're wondering, my photo is of me thinking. Sometimes I get lost in thought. It's silly, I know. But, it's a precious memory to me. I don't want to forget about it ever, so I'm going to leave it here on my blog.
It may be small, but I believe that the most precious things in life can even be the smallest and most simplistic things.
Oh, and I did find my Fighter the other day. My other half. It made me so happy. This is the happiest that I've been since my girlfriend broke up with me after some terrible news that I won't depress you with as of right now.
This blog will probably stop after I'm twenty-one. Not because of boredom I suppose. Just life. But... I'm living my life to the fullest and trying to accomplish every goal that I have. I promised myself a long time ago that I would do this, and that is what I shall do.
I'm probably rambling a lot. Though... If anyone does read this and my ramblings and wants to talk, feel free to reply! It's fun to meet online friends!
Well, til tomorrow. Less than three years left.
xoxoxo,
TrustRuiLessSakai
- - - - - - - - - - -this template was created by grimkitty of back to neverland. steal it and you might wake up to find that ALL YOUR GENITALS ARE GONE. you have been warned.
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Rui Sakai
SACRIFICE
TRUSTLESS
FOURTH YEAR
( APPLICATION )
~It's Natural To Feel Pain. It's How We Know That We're Alive~
Posts: 6
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Post by Rui Sakai on Jan 15, 2013 7:22:36 GMT -4
~T r u s t R u i L e s s S a k a i~---------------but i'm not that brave ------------------ between the good and bads where you'll find me, reaching for heaven the date is january 15th
dearblogogers,
Hello again. It's been a few days hasn't it. Yeah. It has been a little trying, but I made sure to come back because I wanted to share some more of my thoughts.
We played baseball again... I'm the fir st baseman, but a lot of people on the team don't think I should be. I can catch the ball just fine. But, it's the pressure and the anxiety that tends to get to me... But i'm so glad that I can feel those emotions. It isn't quite fun, but it's how I know that I'm alive.
We lost.... A lot of the guys blamed me again... I ended up fainting a little after the game and ended up at home. The next day at school though wasn't as great as I'd expected.
People weren't cruel to me. But, my team mates were more disappointed. After they had "talked" with me, I had laid there in the snow wondering if it would be okay to go home in the condition that I was in. My heart had felt as though it was going to explode and i just thought of Simon and Eli....
Simon.... Eli..... I'm so glad I didn't go home or run into either of them. They would probably be worried. Mom and dad don't know about what's been going on either. But, it's all in good fun. I just have to keep trying harder. Then... maybe we can win a game. Maybe if I hit a home run... I'll show them and we can all be friends again. I'd very much like that.
For now, I'll go back to pretending things are still okay. I want to smile. I want to show everyone that there's hope and that there's no time in life to keep frowning. I want to accomplish a miracle. Life is too precious to let go.
I bought Eli a new game to play. It's the one that I'm sure he wanted from the commercials. I really hope that he likes it...
Then... there's the hospital. I guess my medicine has stopped working recently. I'm not going to let anyone know; not even Eli. Mom and dad know, but we're having some new medication flown in from elsewhere. I really hope it works. I want to be able to graduate. I want to hold that diploma in my hand and be able to go to college for a little while. Most of all, I want to stay with all of my friends and continue to make memories.
Until next time...
xoxoxo,
TrustRuiLessSakai
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